Sunday, October 05, 2008

Fear NOT!!

Something happened today that made me question myself. Not wanting to get into specifics I will be very vague but relevant.

I allowed fear to control me. I sat frozen not knowing what to do in a given situation. Then later that day I felt this tugging, pulling, NEED to make it right. I am a believer so my "little voice" to me is the Holy Spirit. So, in an attempt to escape that fear and uncertainty I approached that person (not literally but in an email) and expressed my apologies for not taking the oppourtunity to give them the praise they so richly deserved because I didn't know how they would react. My fear of the unknown kept me from blessing someone. How I felt the rest of the day SUCKED. I didn't like myself. Now, for the record I will state that this is someone I have known A LONG TIME. I would dare say, close to half my life. Circumstances made it weird but I should have moved past that and faced my fear not run from it.

Anyway, I don't know why I am sharing this. This is a little more personal and deeper than I normally go, but I really struggled with this and it took ALOT, I mean ALOT for me to take the hard path vs the easy path. I hope that it worked, I may never know, but honestly it doesn't matter. I followed what I felt my Lord telling me and somehow, someway I know that it will work for the good.

Thanks for letting me share.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

I love the deep post. if it was not midnight there. I would call and talk. H

Mom On A Mission said...

How awesome that you were obedient to what you felt the Holy Spirit telling you to do. That is the most important thing. Thank you for sharing a piece of your heart with your readers. I know that the Lord will use it to teach all others to do the same thing. It has spoken to my heart!

Voice On The Wind said...

I'm proud of you for being not only obedient but vulnerable.
You are right, that little voice is the Holy Spirit and sometimes we brush it off.
I have been where you were...without knowing details. And we don't need details. The thing is, your post gave glory to God and that's what it is all about.

Plus the Enemy doesn't want us to encourage one another or obey God so of course he is going to stick Fear on to us. Fear sucks and is a major enemy of mine.

I thank you for sharing. I have seen that I am not the only one who has gone through this and I have been encouraged as well in the power and love of God and the blessings that flow from simple obedience.

Much love to you and yours.

thesecretlifeofkat said...

Whether you end up seeing the benefit or not, I pray that you'll feel peace knowing that He'll take it from here.

Good job, Stephanie.

Tracy said...

As I was growing up I always wondered about the verse that says "perfect love casts out fear" because being young and fearless didn't allow me that perspective. Now I know that fear is what prevents me from progress more often than not.

I am glad that you had the courage to listen to the Spirit and confront your situation. I hope you are blessed by your obedience in very tangible ways.

Michele said...

Thanks for setting the example of doing the right thing even when it is a very hard thing. Thanks for sharing your heart and in the process encouraging and blessing others. Praying for you.