Something happened today that made me question myself. Not wanting to get into specifics I will be very vague but relevant.
I allowed fear to control me. I sat frozen not knowing what to do in a given situation. Then later that day I felt this tugging, pulling, NEED to make it right. I am a believer so my "little voice" to me is the Holy Spirit. So, in an attempt to escape that fear and uncertainty I approached that person (not literally but in an email) and expressed my apologies for not taking the oppourtunity to give them the praise they so richly deserved because I didn't know how they would react. My fear of the unknown kept me from blessing someone. How I felt the rest of the day SUCKED. I didn't like myself. Now, for the record I will state that this is someone I have known A LONG TIME. I would dare say, close to half my life. Circumstances made it weird but I should have moved past that and faced my fear not run from it.
Anyway, I don't know why I am sharing this. This is a little more personal and deeper than I normally go, but I really struggled with this and it took ALOT, I mean ALOT for me to take the hard path vs the easy path. I hope that it worked, I may never know, but honestly it doesn't matter. I followed what I felt my Lord telling me and somehow, someway I know that it will work for the good.
Thanks for letting me share.